I remember being glued to the TruTv when Casey Anthony's trail was going on, I was shocked at the whole thing. One thing that fascinates me are people and how they act and react, and a group of people that fascinates me most: True crime; don't judge?! Why do I find true crime so fascinating, I think it comes from all those years as a social worker, you can't help but always be on perceiving motive mode as a social worker or you will be eaten alive; and come to think of it that is how I parent as well; not always a good thing!
You wonder what pain must have been in that house to create the situations that became the Caylee Anthony case. What combination of family atmosphere, parenting, Casey's basic nature came to create what happened. The whole story is one of great sadness.
I don't think, if I were Casey, that I would be making video and/or audio blogs, I would be too ashamed to be in the public eye: acquitted or not. For me, assuming Casey did not kill Caylee, there would still be a huge sense of guilt, and questions I would have: Why didn't I do better for that little girl, what could I have done better myself. I could not bare the thought of what others were thinking of me!
And if I were Casey and I did kill Caylee, well there is only one explaination for the Video: Narcissism. People with Narcissistic Personality Disorder feel both self-centeredness and worthlessness. Their sense of self-importance is generally extravagant, and they demand attention and admiration. Concern or empathy for others is typically absent. They often appear arrogant, exploitative, and entitled. However, despite their inflated sense of self, below their brittle facade lies low self-esteem and intense envy of those whom they regard as more desirable, worthy, or able.
By no means do I believe that mental illness is an excuse it just gives us an understanding of why she may have done what she did. I don't know what Casey did but I pray for her and hope she does not have children again. What pressure she was under, what lack of whatever that caused her to strike out will happen again. As a parent I know pressure can be a daily thing if you are unprepared for the amount of selflessness that parenting requires. To harm a child is an extreme reaction to immature judgement. We have all felt at the ends of our rope but we do what is best of our children and walk away, take a mommy time out, talk when we are calmer, delay decisions to when tempers have cooled. We don't make the snap decision and break the bond of trust and harm our children. Caylee is the ultimate victim of child abuse and I pray that moms will seek out help and support before anything happens. And we moms who have the support and tools we need, I pray we branch out to other mothers who are hurting. "Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?" (Matthew 22:36 NIV). Jesus replied, " 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments" (Matthew 22:37-40 NIV).